Friday, July 5, 2013

Memoir 9, Being With God


July 6, 2013
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I spent the first sixteen years of my life separated from God.  Of course, as an infant and toddler you can’t be guilty of that.  I estimate that around the age of five you have the cognitive ability to understand God in a small way and make the decision to accept Christ.  So, if we want to be technical here, I’d say that I spent eleven years separated from God, from when I was five to sixteen-years-old, getting saved at seventeen.  I’m six years into my faith now — just six short years.  It feels a lot longer than that, though.  In that short time, however, God has revealed things to me that I never anticipated to know, and He has set the course of my life on several amazing journeys, especially now as a prospecting pastor about to start my undergrad.  In just four years after giving myself to Christ, God revealed to me His plan for me to be a pastor and the necessary steps to take in order to get there.  At times I feel that I’m not worthy of this great calling, although I am grateful for it.  I have Christian friends who’ve been in the faith much longer than I have, and yet God has bestowed upon me this calling of being a pastor.  As I write this God is telling me that it is not the quantity of faith, but the quality of faith.  God doesn’t qualify the called; He calls the qualified.  But I wonder what makes me so “qualified?”  Yes, I take pride in my faith and it is better than most peoples’ faith I know, which I do not take comfort in but am rather disturbed by it.  At first glance my faith is great, but I fall back into sin just like anybody else, yet God not only forgives me every time but still holds on to this calling.

So I grow ever more curious of just what His purpose for me is.  What great accomplishments does He have in store for me?  I have goals, I have visions — I have dreams I wish to achieve for the sake of God’s people.  For the longest time I’ve seen myself the head of an organisation that takes in abused and troubled children and educates them spiritually and maybe even academically.  I am no intellectual of business, so I have no idea how this would be achieved.  Whether this is just a desire of mine or something God has placed into my heart to achieve, I do not know.  Perhaps it is because my confidence in achieving this is lacking, which I see now is a problem with trust in God.  I just don’t know if He wants me to do this.  If it is, I’m sure He’ll reveal to me in time how I’m supposed to achieve it.  I have this overwhelming desire to preach to youth, from children to college age, especially the younger ones approaching or already in their adolescent years.  Adolescence is such a fragile state of faith, for in adolescence we are just formulating a sense of independence and identity.  Because we are searching for this new independence and identity at this age, far too often does the teenager decide to become independent of God and not gain their identity in Christ.  That was me for most of my adolescent years, for I was seventeen when I came to Christ — the brink of adolescence, just approaching adulthood.  I can understand where each of these kids are coming from and I just desire to preach to and guide each one of them.

I’ve spent more years of my life away from God than I have with Him, yet God has this great plan for me.  Not including infancy and toddler stages, I’ve spent 11 years away from Christ and 6 years with Him.  I always wonder where I’ll be at in my faith and in life after 11 years being with Him, then 16, then twenty…  I suppose this is what makes God so amazing, that it doesn’t matter how long you’ve known Him; the only thing that really matters is the quality of your faith in Him.  This quality cannot be calculated.  Only God knows the exact amount of your faith, and if it is great, He’ll probably let you know.  I’ve always had such a strong desire to increase my knowledge in God’s Word, which is probably why the past six years seem so much longer because of all the knowledge God has given me already.  Time certainly flies when you invest all or most of your time in God, and I can now agree that life is, indeed, short.  It’s strange thinking I’m already 23-years-old, almost a quarter of a century, and even stranger thinking that it’s only been six years since I’ve known Christ and that it seems much longer than that.  Maybe it’s the quality of my faith that distorts the time.  I have come to personally know Him so well in just this short amount of time that it doesn’t seem like it took six short years to know Him this well.  Basically what I’m saying is that what takes some people ten or fifteen years or even a lifetime to know about Him on a personal level has only taken me six years.  I’m sure others can relate to this.  This is a great sense of accomplishment for me not so I can gloat about it, but on a personal level because of how miserable I was for all those years.  I don’t boast about my faith; I boast about Jesus Christ and His amazing love and God’s awesome power.

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Memoir 8, All I Need Is God


July 4, 2013
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In my adolescent years, I was so desperate for attention and recognition — thinking only of myself and wishing to become someone.  That’s the problem with American society today; we grow up believing that we have to be well known whether it be honourable fame or something of notoriety because of the attention that celebrities and politicians get.  Celebrities and politicians lead such narcissistic lives, even when they portray otherwise, and surround themselves with so much drama and because they are in the public eye, for some dastardly strange reason we are attracted to their dramas and misfortunes.  Because they receive this attention and so many people love them with an equal amount of people hating them, we grow up believing in this culture that that is the only way to matter.

I like to believe that I lead a humble life now.  I care not for recognition for my achievements and talents anymore like I did then, and it really was not that long ago.  Leading a life in Christ, I care only about serving Him and others, and I care not if I am given a spotlight for my kindness and my achievements.  That “reward” is only temporary, and my ultimate reward is in Heaven.  Only a few years ago did I have a strong desire to be recognised for my musical talent on saxophone.  My closest friends who were saxophonists received recognition above me time and time again, and I was deeply depressed by it.  I desired so much to be recognised above my peers, and not making it into the Michigan Honour Band simply because my tone was “too bright” didn’t help either.  So my self-esteem was at a consistent low.  It wasn’t until I was accepted into the U.S. Army Bands after passing my audition when I finally gained some recognition, but it didn’t last, for I had to leave in seven months.  Interestingly enough, my desire for recognition faded after that because I was so focused on my service in the army, but the desire came back when I still could not be recognised as a great saxophonist among my colleagues at one point.  I grew up being told by my parents and teachers and friends that I’m a great musician, but I never saw a reason to believe that.  Their words were not out of blind kindness either because I was in my high school’s top band and above that I was a professional musician for three years and gained recognition among my colleagues for a time in the army bands.  It wasn’t until my last year and a half when that recognition faded, and after I got out I realised that it was because of indolence.  I had stopped putting myself out there; I had simply stopped caring.

And now, for the past seven months, recognition has been the least of my concerns.  I don’t want the attention anymore.  When you have all the attention, you are only looked upon in shame when you do something wrong, no matter how small it is.  That’s not why I don’t want attention anymore, though, but that definitely makes it less appealing.  These past seven months have been some of the most I’ve submitted myself to Christ, and it is He who should get all the attention and recognition, not me.  I got out of military service because God commanded me to do so in order that I may go to school, become a pastor, and preach His Word and help those in desperate need.  Since I’ve gotten out, I’ve been dedicating so much of my time in prayer, worship, fellowship, and studies to grow closer and closer to Christ.  There have been plenty of times in my faith when I’ve spent a lot of time in each of these attributes, but these past several months have been more extreme than those times, I think.  No, not more extreme, just Christ doing a lot more work in me because of the more pure sincerity I have in doing so.  The more the days go by, the less I think of myself.  I’ve always been so selfish.  I’ve desired recognition above my peers in many aspects and I’ve always desired a romantic relationship.  I don’t care about any of those anymore.  Whenever I receive recognition from somebody, I find myself giving the praise and glory to God, for it truly goes to Him.  As far as a romantic relationship, as I have recently stopped caring about that, I desire it less and less.  Should God decide to bring a Christlike woman into my life sooner or later, then I will praise His glorious name.  But all I want is to know Christ more and more so that I can help reveal His love to all people.

Recognition is fleeting, but my God is eternal.  In God’s eyes, I am held in high regards, although I don’t deserve to be.  When I feel lame, God says I’m awesome.  When I’m feeling lonely, Christ is there beside me.  When I feel stupid, God reveals to me my intelligence.  When I feel like a failure, God forgives my trespasses and blesses me with wisdom through my humility.  When I feel sad, I rejoice in the Lord and He gives me joy.  When I’m angry, the Holy Spirit calms me.  When I feel unlovable, God envelops me with His Spirit because I am loved, and always will be.  You see, all I need is God.  I don’t need the fleeting recognition of man or the fictions of flimsy romance.  All I need is my God who is my Rock and my refuge.  The Lord sustains me, and I give Him all the glory.  I give Him my life’s servitude.

Memoir 7, The Armour of God

June 30, 2013
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There is a pattern of unbelief that I am most curious of and is rather fascinating.  Most unbelievers I come across have such a strong desire to persuade me away from my faith whether they decide to exercise the theory of evolution or typical atheistic "logic" (i.e. if God is an all loving God and does not save people from massacres and famine, then He must not exist).  The fallacy of their childish logic is understandable to an extent because each of us are faced with these doubts, but what separates the Christian from the unbeliever is that we defeat the fallacies and starve the doubts fed by the Devil and evidently overcome the doubts by feeding our faith.  What I find increasingly interesting is that most unbelievers I come across feel that it is a necessity to express such hatred, persecution, and angry logic towards me and fellow brethren.  There are guilty Christians who bring about the persecution and judgement and attempt of persuasion into the faith first and therefore have the unbelievers become defensive and therefore attack.  It is a simple defence mechanism to attack when the very basis of your beliefs are threatened.  These very wrongful Christians may be the very reason why most unbelievers attack innocent Christians — they feel judged and persecuted by a Christian in their past and therefore assume all Christians do this and so decide to attack us, whether we instigated the argument or not.  (Keep in mind that as Christians we are not to instigate arguments and debates.  It is unbiblical.)

The Word tells us that we are to "reject foolish and ignorant disputes, knowing that they breed quarrels" (II Timothy 2:23).  And Titus 3:9 says to "avoid foolish debates, genealogies, quarrels, and disputes about the law, for they are unprofitable and worthless."  What it means by "genealogies" are speculative interpretations of the Old Testament.  The Word of God says arguments and debates are unprofitable and worthless!  Indubitably, we can all agree on this because in arguments and debates, especially with unbelievers going back and forth listing opinion after opinion for hours, what are you accomplishing?  Above all, what are you accomplishing in God's glory?  How is this argument or debate bringing glory to God?  This is a rhetorical question because it's obvious that such quarrels dishonour God's image.  Being made in the image of God, we are dishonouring what He created us to become — His children in His image.  "Ah," someone may say, "is it not right to resolve a dispute?"  Proverbs 20:3, It is honourable for a man to resolve a dispute, but any fool can get himself into a quarrel.  If you can peacefully resolve a dispute without including yourself in the quarrel, it is honourable.

I often say that we are soldiers for Christ, and some may argue that as soldiers it is our duty to defeat hostile arguments with our own logic and the Word of God.  If that were true, then the power of God's Word would end each and every argument with the unbeliever as a believer, but such does not happen. I have two points to make here.  First, and shortly, as a veteran of the U.S. Army, a soldier knows that honour, respect, and mercy are more essential than taking out the enemy.  As Christian soldiers, our values are the fruit of the Spirit, which are love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faith, meekness, and self-control (Galatians 5:22-23).  And secondly, as soldiers for Christ, we wear the armour of God whereas those of the world are exposed with their weak flesh.  They're missing the armour of God, and so their flesh is exposed and they are weak.  They are not our enemies; Satan is the enemy.  In the army, anyone not clearly wearing any hostile gear are considered non-combatants and it is considered both illegal and unethical to fire upon them.  And with the Geneva Convention in effect, anyone who fires upon us and subsequently drops their weapon is also considered a non-combatant.  When we debate and argue with unbelievers, we are firing upon non-combatants, even if they attacked first.  Always going on the offensive is the world view of a soldier, but as a Christian we are to remain in the line of defence.

I'm going to use Ephesians 6:10-17 as support for this, which is the passage that talks about the armour of God.  In verse 11 it says to "put on the full armour of God so that you can stand against the tactics of the Devil."  This is the vital key!  It says we are to wear the full armour of God in order to stand against the tactics of Satan — his battle strategies.  This is a defence tactic, not an offence!  One of his tactics are the persecutions and arguments we face from unbelievers in order to create doubt within us.  But we are to stand our ground in defence!  "Ah," someone may say, "is coming back with a rebuttal not a form of defence?"  It is a form of defence, yes but this defence includes a tactic of offence in which you attack back while defending; you are attacking and defending simultaneously, but the armour of God is simply defence.  In your mind you may think you are simply defending your faith but you are doing so by attacking them.  Verse 12 then goes on to tell us that "our battle is not against flesh and blood," which are unbelieving people, "but against... the world powers of this darkness, [and] against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavens."  Our battle is not against these believers but against the darkness and evil of the words they're speaking, which is Satan working through them.  Satan formulates the tactic and these unbelievers are just the means to an end, and so I repeat: the enemy is Satan, not these unbelievers.  And verse 13 tells us "this is why you must take up the full armour of God, so that you may be able to resist the evil day" — the day(s) these quarrels occur — "and having prepared everything, to take your stand."  This is exactly what defence is — preparing yourself to stand against the forces of evil, not marching directly into it (that's offence).  The use of the word preparation is very important here because as you'll see, all these forms of defence that Scripture gives us can only be strong enough if we prepare against the attacks of the dark forces, which comes with experience and trial and and error.

So now the question is, "What is the composition of the armour of God?  How do we utilise it?"  Well, it's given to us in verses 14-17, which I'm going to walk you through.  It tells us to stand "with truth like a belt around your waist."  Anyone can use this to argue that truth is to speak it against unbelievers in their debate.  No, they are wrong.  It says to stand with truth "like a belt."  What does a belt do?  It supports your foundation so that you won't fall.  Like a belt, we are to utilise what we know about the truth of God's Word to support the foundation of our faith so that we won't fall.  Don't take the belt off and start beating somebody with it; that's not what it was designed to do.  When we are faced with these persecutions and arguments, we are to exercise our knowledge of the truth of God's Word in maintaining the foundations of our faith — our faith unwavering.

Next, it says to stand with "righteousness like armour on your chest."  Armour on the chest makes you stand and walk upright, not with conceit but with protection and assurance, and with armour on your chest you are also able to trust that nothing will penetrate it — your righteousness.  We are to utilise our righteousness to keep us upright in the faith, but we have to be careful not to be self-righteous.  But what is righteousness?  Romans 3:20, Therefore no one will be declared righteous in God's sight by the works of the law; rather, through the law we become conscious of our sin.  You are righteous when you are cognisant of your own sin, recognising that you are a sinner and will always be a sinner and because of that you humble yourself through the humility of it and do not judge anyone to be less than you are.  As soon as you achieve this, you can then stand upright because the shame and guilt of sin will no longer be able to wear on your shoulders and keep you down.  Nothing can penetrate your righteousness in Christ unless you allow it to, and you have to trust that your righteousness through Christ is powerful against these dark forces.  As soon as you allow the things that an unbeliever is saying to penetrate your righteousness, your shoulders will sag and you will no longer walk upright because the heaviness of that shame and guilt will have returned.  Righteousness is "God's righteousness through faith in Jesus Christ, to all who believe, since there is no distinction" (Romans 3:22).  By believing in Christ and having faith in whom He was, is, and is to come while being cognisant of your sin and not feeling any more guilt or shame of them because of your repentance and God's forgiveness, you are righteous.  If you allow these words spoken by unbelievers to penetrate your armour on your chest by making you not believe anymore or doubt and feel guilty and shameful of your sin, you damage your righteousness and risk destroying it.  Not just what these people say, but even the doubts that you create.  Also, another note, Christians are called to judgement, contrary to popular belief, but not the judgement we all think when we hear or read the word.  When Jesus teaches "judge not, that ye be not judged" (Matthew 7:1) He is not talking about simply judging people.  He is saying that we are not to judge (condemn) people to Hell.  The Greek word that is used here for the word "judge is krino.  It means "to separate, select, choose" and hence "to determine," and so "to judge, pronounce judgement."  In its use here, the use of this verb means to assume the office of a judge.  If you're a judge, what do you do?  You sentence someone to death or imprisonment.  This is what Jesus is telling us not to do.  Do not put yourself in the position of a judge and sentence someone to the death and imprisonment of Hell.  This is why Christ said in John 7:24, "Stop judging according to outward appearances; rather judge according to righteous judgement."  But what in the world is righteous judgement?  Righteous judgement is to examine your own self first — your own sins, and after you have completed that self-examination you can then examine somebody else's life and see what Scripture has to say about their sin.  The judgement you are to come up with is this:  "They are a sinner just like me.  Scripture says this about their sin, and I must help them to overcome it."

I got a little sidetracked there.  Anyway, what's the next piece of armour?  In verse 15 it says to stand with "your feet sandaled with readiness for the gospel of peace."  This is a lot more simpler than the issue of righteousness.  It simply means to always be ready to tell others about the Gospel.  No, anyone can say here that this contradicts everything I've said up to this point.  That's not necessarily true.  If you tell somebody about the Gospel and they just choose to argue, that's not your problem and so you are to move elsewhere where somebody else is willing to listen and accept Jesus.  You're not giving up on them because there is the power of prayer.  Spreading the Gospel is not for arguments and debates.  God did not give us His Word to debate with people; He spoke to us in order that we might lead people to Christ so that they might know Him and in turn inherit His kingdom as God's children.  However, if somebody is sincerely intrigued and is asking you questions simply out of curiosity and intrigue and wishes to know what Christianity is all about, then answer them.  There is a huge difference between a mature, gentle discussion and quarreling.  If an unbeliever is arguing with you, he or she is not interested in being saved or having their mind changed; they've already made up their mind.  This is why you must pray for them on your own time.  If an unbeliever is asking you questions without argument, looking for answers, then they're obviously looking for a change that only God can offer that they wish to understand.  So put on the sandals of God's peace and always be ready to teach others of the Gospel.

In verse 16 we are told:  In every situation take the shield of faith, and with it you will be able to extinguish the flaming arrows of the evil one.  A shield is the most used form of defence, and what is this shield?  Our faith.  I find it very interesting that the very thing we have to defend is also one of the greatest forms of defence, and it is because faith can be that strong.  It is imperative that we get to the point where our faith is so unwavering that we can deflect the flaming arrows of Satan.  So basically our faith has to be so strong that the tactics Satan decides to attack our faith with are ultimately ineffective.  That is a true challenge, and it takes a very long time to get there, but it is very achievable.  Next, in verse 17 we are told to "take the helmet of salvation."  Our salvation is our inheritance in God's kingdom with Christ Jesus, and we are to use that knowledge of our salvation to protect our minds.  You have the ultimate inheritance to be with our Lord in God's kingdom!  That is a glorious thing!  Therefore do not allow the words of unbelievers to sizzle in your mind and distract you from that.  They don't have it, but you do.  So put on the helmet of this inherited salvation and protect your mind against these words that unbelievers speak — don't allow yourself to lie awake at night thinking of these things that the unbeliever said.  Be absolutely sure of your salvation and what the Word of God says about it.

Lastly, it says to take "the sword of the Spirit, which is God's Word."  Here someone may say, "Ah!  A sword!  You use a sword for attacking!"  That's one use of it, yes, but you also use a sword to defend yourself and block out attacks.  We are not to use the sword of God's Word to attack others but to defend our faith against the words of the world in order to block them from infecting our faith.  Use Jesus as an example when He stood against the temptations of Satan (Matthew 4:1-11).  Yes, Jesus actually used the Word of God to physically speak against the Devil, but He attacked the Devil, not a person, and the end result was that Satan fled from Him.  Remember in verse 12 where it says that our battle is not against flesh and blood — people.  Do not attack people with the sword of God's Word.  Their words (and our own thoughts) create doubts in our minds and that's when we attack with the sword of God's Word, and Satan will flee (James 4:7).  When you speak the Word of God against peoples' accusations and "logic" they are so arrogant and ignorant that they just keep on attacking; they don't run away.  It ultimately becomes ineffective and it's not because the Word of God doesn't work; it's because Satan has such a strong hold on them that they are so unwilling to move their feet and take a leap of faith because they're afraid of what might happen if they do.  So since they keep on attacking, we then have to use God's Word as a sword to block out their blunt blows on our faith by reminding ourselves in our mind what the Word of God says against their purported logic and accusations.  In case you haven't figured it out yet, the purpose of putting on the armour of God is to defend and protect your faith, never to attack — against people, that is.  Since our battle is not against flesh and blood but against these dark powers and forces, doing everything I just described is our only form of offence in battling against these spiritual forces.  As they say in sports, "Your best offence is a good defence."  How true that is for the Christian faith!  By defending your faith against Satan's dark forces you are also fighting against it, for he runs away (remember James 4:7).  But be careful, he will come back and try again.

Memoir 6, Hardships of Pastoring

*Note to reader:  I skipped memoir 5 because there's information in there that I don't really want to reveal to the world.  It's way too personal and I'm honestly afraid of judgement from people because of it.  You'll have to wait till I publish the memoirs to read the April 23rd entry date.*


April 26, 2013
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            If you’re going to preach anything, you must live out those words.  Words are meaningless unless you bring them to life, and the only way to do that is through your own actions.  It is not enough to expect people to simply believe what comes out of your mouth.  Live it out.  As a pastor — as a leader — you are dutifully responsible for living out what you preach.  This brings about a hardship — the highest of expectations.  A good pastor knows what the Word of God says and recognises that he or she is incapable of living out God’s statutes and commands 100% of the time, no matter where they’re at, what they’re doing, and what their situational circumstances causes them to feel.  A good pastor knows what God’s Word says, accepts it, accepts their inevitable failures, and comes to the repentance and renouncing of their sins.  We preach, and the congregations expect us to live accordingly to that to the fullest, and when we fail like any other human being they have a choice — to believe that the pastor is a hypocrite or that he is simply human like the rest of us and falls every now and then.  Discerning the difference betwixt the two is wisdom.  If a pastor has a consistent pattern of falling into sin, then it’s obvious that they’re a hypocrite.  There are good shepherds, then there are false shepherds.  Again, discerning the two is wisdom.
            I’m writing to the average Christian now.  My brethren, it is acceptable for a pastor to be human.  His calling does not make him any more human than you are and it does not transform him into some heavenly being inside the flesh of a human.  No, he is no more human than you are.  Neither does his calling bring him any more closer to God than you are, physically.  Yes, his faith may be stronger or even equal to yours, but faith is not a destination in which we consummate while on this earth.  Faith is an ever growing process and only becomes complete the moment Christ comes to take us Home.  Ergo, do not be disheartened; it is very possible for you to grow in your faith ever so strongly.  Do not use a pastor’s faith, or any other person’s faith, as a discouragement to not grow in your faith.  Rather, use it as an inspiration to aspire towards.  Do not think to yourself, “Their faith is so strong.  Mine can never be like that.”  That is Satan manipulating you and it is a LIE!  Faith is eternal growth, not a stage by stage process.
           A pastor, or a devout Christian, is not superior to the newly born again Christian.  As brothers and sisters in Christ, we are in unity.  The Word speaks of this in Ephesians 4:1-6.  Humility, gentleness, patience, and acceptance of one another — these inspire unity in the Spirit.  Humble yourselves before one another.  No talent is greater than another, no lifestyle more preëminent than the next.  Speak and act with gentleness, kindness, and compassion of sincerity.  Be patient with one another, coming to one another with understanding, not preconceived judgements and accusations.  And accept one another — each lifestyle, each hardship and tribulation that we come from.  We all come from different places.  Out of all places and types of people, Jesus Christ calls the poor, the meek, the humble, the disgraced, the persecuted — all those whom we would choose to judge and ignore.  Choosing to ignore and not bring up in the love of Christ those we consider to be of a lower social status than us is forgetting the love of Christ, and when we forget His love He is not in us. 

Memoir 4, Death

April 21, 2013
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            Today’s topic is going to be quite intense.  Because you see, I am dying.  Not from any disease, or cancer, or any other terminal ailments.  I am a healthy young man with no terminal ailments, but I am dying.  We are all dying.  We never know when death’s grip will take our bodies, and our spirits departing wherever God decides them to be.  We never think of death until it happens to somebody close to us or strangers around us.  Whether it’s a car accident, a suicide, a diagnosis of a terminal illness that happens to us or someone else and is inoperable, a terrorist attack (foreign or domestic), an abortion, or a massacre, we never ruminate upon death unless it affects us personally or our surrounding environment.  Death is very serious, and it will happen to every single one of us.  It’s because it is so serious and frightening that we choose to ignore it until it finally comes to take us or someone close to us (or not so close when it’s a massacre, or the death of a favoured celebrity).  We have to prepare for it.  Living in acceptance of it is to live free of it — the fear of it, the grip of it — just as Jesus Christ has defeated death.  In the U.S. Army, statistics show that more soldiers die in a car accident at home than they do in combat in the Middle East.  Today is an early Sunday morning, and after I am finished with this memoir entry I could get in my jeep and on my way to church die in a car accident due to any variety of causes.  I say that not because death can take us at any moment, but because driving a vehicle is really dangerous (hence the statistical fact I mentioned).  It could be from wrong judgement calls on the road, or even losing the use of my legs at any moment due to my spinal condition (more on that another time).  While I was in the army I would tell my mother all the time these statistics and that technically makes me safer in Afghanistan than I am at home, especially being in the band since all we do on deployment is play music and that it’s a non-combatant MOS (military occupational specialty).  But I do not fear death.  I acknowledge its possibility in many situations, but I do not fear it, and I’ll tell you why.
            Many people, even Christians, fear death, and they have their irrational reasons.  (I say irrational because phobias are irrational fears, although they appear rational to the victim.)  Some fear it because they’re unaware of what comes after death, or simply don’t believe in Heaven or Hell.  There are Christians who fear it because they doubt their salvation — they live in so much guilt of their sins that they doubt God’s mercy and therefore doubt they’ll inherit God’s kingdom as co-heirs of Christ, which is a huge problem.  If you’re living in so much guilt of your sins, repent and renounce your sins and you will find mercy (Proverbs 28:13).  Repenting is the easy part; God will forgive you instantaneously.  Renouncing them is the hard part, where you have to do the work to turn from those sinful ways and not do them anymore, otherwise if you continue in that sin you’re still guilty of it.  There’s also the fact that a saved, born again, baptised Christian cannot lose his or her salvation.  Once you have Jesus Christ, you have Him forever, unless you turn from Him, for He says: “Therefore, everyone who will acknowledge Me before men, I will also acknowledge him before My Father in heaven.  But whoever denies Me before men, I will also deny him before My Father in heaven” (Matthew 10:32-33).  This message is as true to believers as it is to unbelievers, whether we wish to believe it or not.  Harsh realities are always difficult to manifest.  You can come into the faith and easily stray from it.
However, Christians who acknowledge Him before men wholeheartedly and do their very best, as a human being, to live according to His name have this irrational fear of death.  They read the book of Revelation and fear His coming, the loss of the earth, and ultimately their own death.  The coming of the Messiah is supposed to be a glorious and victorious event!  Christians who read Revelation and come out of it with fear have a complete misunderstanding of the prophecy.  All the terrible things you read of in the Revelation prophecies happen to those who are left behind after Christ’s rapturing of His Church.  They think that all those things happen then all believers go to Heaven.  No, Christ raptures His Church, and those left behind have to deal with all the tribulations afterwards, even new believers after the fact (and they’ll be resurrected in Heaven at Christ’s Glorious Appearing).  If you don’t want this to be you, repent of your sins steadfastly and submit yourself to Jesus Christ in complete servitude.  Remember, nothing can separate you from your salvation except yourself.  Romans 8:35-39, Who can separate us from the love of Christ?  Can affliction or anguish or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?  As it is written:  Because of You we are being put to death all day long; we are counted as sheep to be slaughtered.  No, in all these things we are more than victorious through Him who loved us.  For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing will have the power to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord!
            What a glorious reality!  What a marvellous victory we have over death, through Christ, to give God praise for!  As a prospecting pastor, I write to Christians.  Why fear death?  There is not a single created thing on this earth or even in Heaven or Hell that can separate you from Jesus Christ — your salvation.  The only thing that can is your denial of Him before men.  That may seem to contradict what I just said, but it does not.  That is an internal force.  There is not a single external force on earth or supernatural that can take the love of Christ away from you.  This is why I do not fear death.  I know where I’m going once I die, and it’s a heck of a lot better than this world we live in now.  So I’m looking forward to dying.  This does not make me a risk taker.  I am far too introverted for such activities and I’m not foolish enough to make such decisions to begin with.  God put me on this earth for one purpose only and that is to preach His Word and help people with their faith.  I simply live.  I go with the flow of life and I trust God with it.
            That’s another thing — trust in God.  I trust God in the preservation of my life.  That’s one more reason why I do not fear death.  I cannot tell you how many times God has saved my life every time I trusted Him with the preservation of it.  I don’t only mean it in the poetic, metaphorical sense either.  I have trusted Him with the preservation of my life in very dangerous situations, whether it’s been on mission trips or my time of service in the United States Army.  Every time I have trusted Him in the preservation of my life He has always delivered me.  He has never failed me.  He is incapable of failing His children.  Do not misunderstand me, however.  There have been plenty of times where I have feared for my life.  But with the Holy Spirit I have within me, every time I was afraid I prayed a quick prayer saying, “God is not finished with me yet.  It’s not time for me to die.”  And immediately, my fear is gone.